somewhere hearts are whole

i think what i loved most about camps was the conversation late at night. to be able to sort of suddenly be comfortable with confiding in strangers that you met just the day before. to all share in the same experience of swatting mosquitoes, talking to yourself and muttering "go away go away" to mosquitoes in dreams, for everyone in the tent to decide that it's too hot and then get a groundsheet, lie on the grass and look up at the stars. the comfortable silence shared amongst strangers who are nearly friends is pretty spectacular. everyone is sort of in their own bubble, thinking about whatever they wish. i remember looking at the person next to me, wondering if they are drifting off to sleep or if they were simply enjoying the cool night air:)

the next day we'd have a campfire and do silly things like dance around it. the camaraderie which we share is always instant, uninhibited joy. the phenomenon of suddenly being so comfortable with strangers who are nearly friends is probably something only experienced at camps. :)

the way an unfamiliar environment brings people together is pretty amazing. :)

hello world.

this is what i want for my 21st birthday

1. family gatherings every month
2. passion for occupational therapy with no expiry date. unlimited free subscription to all occupational therapy journals would fuel this passion.
3. old friends to come back. people to have time to meet up and catch up
4. study room to magically remain neat and tidy. to consistently file up paper. sorry trees:(
5. more time with people..
6. free calls and smses to australia
7. 15 inch macbook pro
8. diamond earstuds. preferably bvlgari. hahaha.
9. pretty necklace
10. fitting vest
11. nice bags/clutches (some to be professional looking)
12. professional clothes, clothes, dresses. CNY clothes hahaha.
13. DSLR.. undecided on model & price. HAHA.
14. sewing tutorial book with dress patterns, patterns for tops, bags, clutches... or sewing lessons
15. serger machine!
16. makeup lessons ??
17. new pencil eyeliner + sharpener
18. photo printer with lots of 4R sized photo paper
19. polaroid camera
20. loft style bedroom HAHA. in an attic

why do i want to be an occupational therapist?
1. High levels of job satisfaction
2. Provides daily challenges
3. Person-centred
4. Encourages independence in at least 1 performance area for each client
5. Decreases burden of care
6. Looks at each person holistically
7. Broad job scope
8. Gives hope
9. Gives 2nd chances at possibly having a better, more fulfilling life
10. Improves individual performance capacitiy/capability
11. Possibly increases access to places of importance (to client)
12. Possibly increases family time by increasing access to places

why do i feel like giving up on my journey towards being an occupational therapist?
1. i'm tired
2. i look haggard
3. i dream about carrying out treatment/doing treatment plans
4. i'm stressed
5. it's awfully challenging and it feels like i have insufficient resources to cope
6. possibly could have higher pay and better quality of life elsewhere
7. feels like sometimes i am doing more harm than good to clients
8. weekends are work-oriented
9. i have poor time management
10. i miss spending time with family & being able to relax
11. everyday mood must be modulated accordingly
12. too many things to take note of/evaluate/think about/plan
13. decreased quality of rest
14. high risk of infections
15. high risk of straining back
16. insufficient muscle power to properly facilitate normal movement in clients

What do i want?
1. Minimum 6 hours continuous sleep everyday, with no dreams of implementing treatment/doing treatment plans
2. More family time
3. Better time management skills
4. Faster information processing
5. Accurate assessment of performance components
6. Better long distance relationship/more emotional support
7. At least 1 work-free weekend day
8. 20 minutes of relaxed bath time X2/day
9. 1 pair of diamond studded earrings
10. Organized itunes + playlists
11. Consistent friday meetings/social support groups with nearly everyone present
12. To have dinner before 8pm daily
13. exercise 1x/week at least (run, arm & core strengthening, stretch)
14. friends meetups to not be cancelled last minute
15. to receive at least 2 hours of direct sunlight/day
16. to continue to be motivated 
17. to read 1 book/month (not work related)
18. wake up feeling alright 5/7 days